Category Archives: Inspirational/Spiritual

The windows of the soul…

A good spirit will shine through them … and an evil spirit can be revealed by looking into them.

Observe the eyes… Are they clear? Do they look directly at you? Is there life in the eyes? Does a clear, honest spirit shine through them? Does love shine through?

In a person connected to the good in their spirit, there is a light that shines through their eyes and this cannot be faked. Michelle Obama
Some people, even when they smile have dead eyes.  I challenge you to look at the eyes…deep into the eyes. Look at the eyes of politicians, news persons, TV personalities and people in your life. Focus your attention to their eyes… that is where you will find their truth, not in their words. The source and intent is in the eyes.

Many Muslims have dead eyes. Look and observe, don’t take my word for it.

A sociopath has dead eyes and a dead stare. As they lie to you, their eyes will give it away, if you will clearly observe. 

Then listen to the voice… not the words, but the voicethe quality of the voice. A voice originates deep inside the essence of a person. It can reveal, if it comes from a place of goodness, dishonesty, or corruption? Do they manipulate their voice, or is it pure and sincere? Does the voice repeat, over-emphasize, lecture, talk down to, or shout? Is it contrived for purpose? Are the words contrived, or do the words and voice come from the heart? Does it hurt your ears or repulse you to even hear it?

The energy of the person. Is it upbeat and honest, or contrived and forced? Some people appear as if they aren’t even in their body, such as Pelosi, Reid, Michelle Obama and Joy Behar, to name a few… As if a body-snatcher took away their essence and left them vacant and vapid… easily able to be taken over and told what to do and to think. Those promoting the new world order have a robotic vacant and vapid stareThe evil eye is very real.  It is glassy, cold, and reveals a person without conscience, one that has been taken over by EVIL…
One definition of ‘evil’ is to have no compassion for your fellow man with the ability to act on it. Add to that, the ability to ‘pretend’ and to ‘lie’ that you have compassion for your fellowman, in order, to manipulate and control them, then acting on it to their destruction and you have out-of-control, insideous evil. What could ever be more evil than that? Recall Hitler?….  
Observe the eyes of dictators…Rep. Michele Bachmann (R-MN) announces the formation of the Tea Party Caucus in Washington

Michelle Bachman comes across full of life with light in her eyes, in her voice, and in her energy. Her eyes reflect peace, joy and honesty.

This is a photo of Anne Frank … joy is in her eyes, essence and energy…

Many children have a kind of joy and light in their eyes…

Reagan had a light in his eyes… a glow about him…Looking through the eyes of love… 

Those without it can try to emulate it. But it is impossible, as the light in the eyes is something that a person either has or has not.

The light in the eyes is something that you are born with. It is your individual soul shinning though.

Those with the light find it very difficult to lie.. those with dead eyes can lie without blinking, or missing a beat…

And the evil ones enjoy trying to suck the energy and light from those who have it…

Those without the light and who can recognize it in others, ‘those full of evil and envy’, will try to diminish and even steal the light from others by trying to control for their purposes. Control is evil. Freedom of choice is of God. Think about this – Guidance is one thing. Control is quite another.

I challenge you to observe the eyes of those in the public ‘eye’ and those in your life.

The eyes are the windows to the soul…Many things can be contrived, lied about and used to con… but this is one thing that can’t be faked. So learn to observe it.
The light in the eyes shines from the essence of the soul and is a gift from God….

Share who you think has light in their eyes along with those that don’t.

New Age Drivel…

by Ann
It feels like and seems like I have investigated and tried it all… Many years ago, I went to one of those psychics in those old houses that you pass on the side of the road… and she told me lots of BS, but two things that were accurate and I was hooked. 

I am a Christian, was always a Christian, will always be a Christian, and have never lost site of this, but still…my search and investigation into the New Age drivel, spiritual world of the lost continued… as I read the Bible, the Koran, Urantia, about Hindus, the Kabbala, Buddhism… Louise Hay, Wayne Dyer, Deepak Chopra, Neale Donald Walsch, Robert Schuller, etc., the list is long. I read cover to cover and repeatedly. I took it all in, weighed it, and discarded most… not that there aren’t and can’t be insights and truths in everything… but soon most become empty… except for Christ.

A pure thought can easily become corrupted.

The ‘secret’ that if you just make a list and believe it strong enough that you can control your destiny is BS. The ‘pretend’ it until you make it…is just that pretending. Then if what you want doesn’t occur, it is ‘supposedly’ because you weren’t ‘clear’ enough, or didn’t want it badly enough. Well…BS!

The religion that teaches, if you kill those that don’t believe like you do and that you will be rewarded with virgins in heaven. Give me a break! Only an idiot could believe this…

It appears to me that most religions, ‘spiritual’ and ‘new age’ thoughts are more about ‘control’ than freedom…even though in ‘new age drivel’ freedom is talked about often. Actually, it appears, it’s more the way to morally corrupt and ultimately control the masses as it bleeds into politics and is used to make money, create followers and a profession. And it is mostly BS!
Some new age drivel states that God wants or expects nothing of you. So, you can do whatever you want. Anything! Have sex with as many, put whatever drugs you want into your system, and just do any and everything, break all the commandments and just plain do as you wish because God doesn’t care and it doesn’t matter…because you see, you are a god yourself. It’s love love love…when really it’s quite the opposite. That if you take certain drugs you will see clearly and find truth. Yeah! Right!… sounds like the ‘flower children’ mentality… also like Sodom and Gomorrah… and it’s BS! Who is this playing God and saying what God wants? Appears more to me like leading people astray… So, again give me a break … what arrogance and BS!

If a people lose their moral compass, they are more easily led into corruption then into disaster and a kind of slavery, as they have no character and stand for nothing…they become morally corrupt, weak, insecure in their direction and spirit, and all this ‘new age’ BS is doing just that!

This collective consciousness that Obama speaks of is corrupted… there is no collective salvation. Salvation is individual. And how utterly arrogant of anyone to think that they have control over so many. Who does Obama think that he is, Christ? When his administration is Anti-Christ at every turn… think about this one hard guys!!!

Anyone who tries to ‘play’ God, put words in God’s mouth, and, or tries to be your God or replace God as an authority… as in the government, or some ‘New Age’ Guru is trying to get you to dance with the devil … not good…

A real connection to the source of God is real freedom from all this BS! And it has nothing to do with covering your head at a certain time or attending some church to socialize. Not that doing this is wrong. It just doesn’t really matter. The focus on ritual is for distraction.
Meditation. I have known those that meditate and do yoga, etc. and I have done these also. And they also can be self-righteous liars. I have learned that those who lead with religion or some ‘spiritual’ practice are usually searching themselves, and, or trying to make money off of it, or trying to manipulate, and control others to make themselves feel like they are more than they are, and like ‘they’ know the answers and are in control, when usually they don’t have a clue.

Think of it.. Oprah, Chopra, and others.. how much money have they made off of their yapping about what they preach to others with their AH HA moments… again give me a break!

Chopra was Michael Jackon’s ‘spiritual’ advisor… umm…. pretty much speaks for itself, huh? It’s obvious that Jackson was one lost soul. He was very talented and could sing about some wonderful ideas, but apparently couldn’t bring peace into himself. It appeared to me that he didn’t really have trust in the Lord… that he put his trust in drugs, materialism and false prophets.

Astrology… now there may be something to this.. as it can be correlated to the Bible. The Wise Men were astrologers. I have studied it and found it to be a profound connection… but it must be from a ‘real’ astrologer, not some column in the newspaper, and not some BS that you call in and ask questions. All those call in psychics are just trying to make money off of the lost and searching. But as astrology can give some insights, nothing can really predict timing, because only God knows this. As the planets can shift and change with little to no warning, showing us that clearly there is an energy that can’t be predicted and that there is an energy and power bigger than us all.

And those that talk to the dead. Right! Why would anyone need to have someone be the go between … all of us can communicate with all diminisions, if we listen, and are connected to the real source of the divine and our divine gift within. It isn’t some ‘trick’ or something that you need to pay money to recieve. It is yours for the asking…and the connection is in your soul and your connection to God… the real God…

As my investigation continued…What I learned was to trust myself and my connection to God.

To trust God and the divine plan for my life. No one is between me and God and no one can tell me what God is, or has planned for me, or what my connection is… I was born knowing. It is imprinted in my DNA and my soul. It is a gift from God… a co-creation with The Almighty.

We all go through times of questioning and when we feel lost… even Jesus was on the desert for a lengthy time and he questioned. That’s, perhaps, a part of it all… the searching and feeling lost, and questioning, at times… is what can spark more awareness and can lead us deeper.

Careful not to give your individual connection and power over to someone else. We all have a interconnection to God whether aware of it or not. In my opinion, life… living… is to bring us more into our awareness…

My connection to God is divine and is a connection deep in my soul.  No particular church, Pope, minister, preacher, book, person, or New Age Guru is the answer…

When you live as close as you can to the 10 Commandments and are honest within yourself… is when you will feel at peace. Remember the golden rule…”Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

The answer is in your soul and you know it when you know it…. and some never do… and they use all that they can to capture others’ spirits…

Nothing is new… and no ‘new age’ guru, ‘new age’ government, ‘new world’ order, or ‘new age’ religion, ‘new age’ talk show host, ‘new age’ monetary system will make any difference or ‘change’ what is real and true.
All this ‘new age’ BS is being used to enslave some to others. It’s not to free your soul or for your salvation! It’s to confine you in their evil and under their control…

Be aware of false prophets…

We are on this earth, not of it….

Would you exchange places…

with someone else? Would you exchange your life, your past, your family, your genetics, your individuality, your soul for another’s? No matter how wealthy, attractive, talented, or priviledged that you ‘think’ that they are, or how lacking and wanting that you ‘think’ you are, would you really want to exchange who you are for their set of circumstances?

Think about this hard and sincerely then tell …

And if you would, what kind of person or whom would you exchange yourself for?

Were you lovers in a previous life?

Here are some clues that might indicate previous incarnations with another. 

1. There’s an irresistible feeling that someone is missing from your life. You feel strongly there is a one-and-only true lover out there waiting for you. Then you meet them.

Lovers : Silhouette of couple kissing at sunset2. You’ve met someone and it’s love at first sight and no mistaking it. You both feel a sudden attraction that has nothing to do with physicality. It’s unexplainable.

3. You and your partner experience the same, or a very similar dream. If this happens, before you share the whole thing with each other, separate and write the dream down in the clearest detail that you can then share.

4. There are things you know about each other that you can’t explain. She loves daisies, can’t abide roses, and you instinctively buy her daisies. He’s crazy about Bach and for some reason, the first gift you gave him was Advent Cantatas.

Lovers : Young couple having an intimate moment on the couch5. When you first made love or became intimate there was no shyness. You felt as if you had been together this way before. The feel and scent of your lover’s body wasn’t new to you.

6. You love talking to each other and listening to each other—you share many values and ideas. You often complete each other’s thoughts.

7. There is/was no discussion of becoming a couple. You had no details to work out. You just Lovers : Beautiful young couple in love near the sea at sunset Stock Photoknew you completed each other.

8. People comment on how incredibly compatible you are, and they said that from the moment you met.

9. You know where your partner is simply by intuition. If he or she is in trouble, you know that, too.

10. Oddly, disharmony mixed with a feeling of commitment is a strong clue. You disagree often, feel at odds, or easily become testy with each other. Yet the love is real. You may be working out issues from a distant past.

No one can prove whether or not, we live multiple times on this planet. Past lives aren’t something new, and the idea of reincarnation isn’t scoffed at by all scientists. World religions and philosophies maintain that living many lives helps us workout our issues to attain spiritual maturity.Lovers : intimate color picture of sweet couple cuddling

You can’t know for sure if that familiarity is from some past life or not. And it might be enlightening and interesting to explore the possibilities.

I have experienced many of the above clues in relationships with almost an uncanny sense of pull, direction and purpose. Almost like an energy was pulling us together as it surrounded and captured us in a fog as the past bled through to the present and we fell through the veil to heal and re-experience, as we touched love, emotions and feelings in all their many dimensions.

Have you ever felt these eerie and magical feelings and knowings? It may not be romantic, but with friends, relatives, associates. You just have this knowing.

(These experiences are not always pleasant as we will soon find out in a book review and interview that I will have on Womenexplode next week…. so stay tuned…)
Have you ever felt these eerie and magical feelings and knowings?

More information on this topic on ‘OUR WORLD PAGE’, titled… ‘What If We Live Forever?’

“It matters not what others think about you…

what matters most is what you think about yourself.”

Sure, we all would like to be ‘liked’, but I would rather stand for truth and honor in my living and communication than to be liked for being false and kissing butt, not saying what I really feel, or just keeping quiet.

But, then at times, it is better not to talk or communicate… because some people don’t know how to, or aren’t able to discuss anything of a different opinion without falling into immaturity, or name calling. Or worst becoming defensive and throwing the hate word around. They may call you ‘hateful’, or state what is being said is ‘hate’, when really, they are the ones full of hate. They are projecting who they are onto you because they can’t see, or own it in themselves.

I rarely if ever use the word hate in any context. But I have come to be made aware that the ‘love and light’ folks use it frequently. I wonder do they ‘think’ that if they project it onto others that they won’t have to ever claim it as their own.

Also, is it not actually self-hate and insecurity to not be able to handle anyone in disagreement with their ‘fragilely put together and held together identity’ of self and ideas?

I have recently had an experience with the those of the ‘love and light’ which appeared  to me more like a cover for intense insecurity and dislike of self. I have noticed more and more frequently that some seem to deem as ‘hate’ anything that disagrees with their opinion. And even as I give explanation here, it is still baffling to me. But so telling of their level and ablility, or inability to discuss, to think, to communicate and to be tolerant of other opinions. 

Get a clue…When you have self-confidence you are more able to discuss and have tolerance of others’ opinions and ideas.

There is so much circle talking going on and…why so much insecurity in this world today?

And why do so many that claim to be ‘love and light’ have the word ‘hate’ roll off their tongue faster than anyone elses? They are so often pointing the finger outside themselves when they need to turn it back towards their own being and take at look at self.

Then there are the folks that don’t want to be judged .. so fearful of it that they are the first to point the finger towards blaming others…

If you say, “Don’t judge me.”, to someone. Can’t you see that this shows that you are insecure in who that you are, or what you are doing, or you would never even think this way, or give a moments notice to whom is ‘judging’ you?  I have never told someone not to judge me. The thought never enters my mind.

And BLAME… this word is thrown around all the time these days…

As in the tragedy that just occured in Arizona, the blame game took off at rapid pace by liberals and the main stream media. And they were all incorrect in their placement of blame.

One unstable man did this horror and that is it and no one can know exactly why?  As his actions began in his own mind and were excecuted by him.


I am tired of hearing these words and especially in the overdone context that they are being used in today  It is like apart of this society is being held captive by immaturity expressed by’child-like’ verbiage…so immature intellectually and emotionally that they can’t communicate or discuss without using these words.

A recent example of twisting and the use of blame and judgment: A quote from Obama’s most recent pep rally.. which, in my opinion, should have been only a memorial instead of a political opportunity for him. 

“But at a time when our discourse has become so sharply polarized – at a time when we are far too eager to lay the blame for all that ails the world at the feet of those who think differently than we do – it’s important for us to pause for a moment and make sure that we are talking with each other in a way that heals, not a way that wounds.” 

Obama needs to ‘get’ that the American people, the Tea Party, and the Republicans are not his enemy.  He needs to stop talking down and bad about these people and inferring blame on people when there is none. He plays the judging, hate, and blame game continually in his political platform and those that voted for him do the same… the ‘love and light’, progessives and liberals.

There was really no reason for Obama to say this. Sure, it sounds good, but has nothing to do with what occurred, except for in the case of his backers and believers playing their blame game. Obama continually twists the blame and continually projects… it is Leviathan at work..  used for manipulation of the masses.

He, as President, should not divide the American people and point fingers at Beck and Fox, and others, etc. whether he likes their position or not. And he should not twist words and use every situation to campaign, but this is what this man does. And his doing of this shows absolutely NO RESPECT FOR THE INTELLIGENCE OF THE AMERCAN PEOPLE.

Obama knows what he is doing. And in my opinion, Obama’s rhetoric reflects actual disdain towards the American people and is insulting to the intelligence of us all as he uses hate, judging and blame and twists it to his agenda.

Again, it matters more what you think of yourself than what others think of you…

When you have a certain level of self-esteem and self-confidence, you will not have the need to call differing opinons ‘hate’. You will not care if you are being judged. And if you are ‘judged’,  you will look at your behaviors to see why and self-evaluate. And blame will live with self-first and not be projected outward. And you will be able to see clearly when people are trying to manipulate you using these tactics and in this manner…as in Obama, his handlers and his backers…
What do you think?

Go with the flow…let go…

by Ann
Life can feel like a dream– elusive and abstract, like a Picasso, where at times, much doesn’t seem to make sense. So much that we might find ourselves in the position of trying to figure out and understand the meaning behind every incident, thought and emotion.
But doing this can bring us more confusion, more seeking, more desires and more holding onto the idea of wanting to control the circumstances in our lives. When we desire any and everything that we feel we lack, the desire to try and control events, people and circumstances becomes a Mount Everest, nestled in the center of our minds and our souls, in which, we don’t truly see what is… but instead, what we wish to have and accomplish, which is to be “on top and in control.”

Our desire to be in control can be our undoing.

We selfishly hold on to what we want and, paradoxically, hold on to what we don’t. So many say that they don’t want to suffer, but unconsciously hold on to suffering like a child who carries his security blanket wherever he goes.

But what is going with the flow and letting go? What does it really mean? What are we letting go of, and what happens when we finally do relax and go with the flow?

To start, letting go means that we need to recognize, or become aware that we are holding on to something.
But what? A relationship, a job, your story, protecting the self from suffering? People hold on to any and  everything. The result is that we lose our authenticity and our child-like qualities of enjoying every moment, of flowing with life. Flowing with life can point us in the direction of what we really want while further expanding and revealing who we are to ourselves, and reminding us of why we are here.

Recently, I asked myself, “what am I holding on to?” I laughed out loud as I thought of the wishes and wants that I have that haven’t yet been recognized. Then thinking back over my life, I recall the twists and turns that led me to more fulfillment. A better fulfillment than I could have seen at the time.  But as the changes were happening, I was fearful that it was ‘wrong’  and would lead me to destruction or worse… when it was the path of my life and if I let go and let it happen, ‘went with the flow’… it all led me to a better place of being.
As humans, we LOVE to know things and to have all the answers, but when we think we have the answers, or think ‘we know’, there’s no room for anything new to enter that can change our perceptions, which will ultimately transform who we are.

This is the first and most vital step: asking yourself if you really know what it is that you’re holding on to, and why. And to be honest with yourself, if you don’t know, and to be honest with yourself, even if you think that you do. This is the beginning of the journey – where the answers begin to arrive.

Lao-Tzu practiced Wu-Wei, which literally means “non-action,” and from this state gave us the immortal Tao Te Ching, which is one of the greatest writings on letting go by doing nothing, ‘without force’. Here are a couple of examples he wrote regarding the freedom of allowing: “The sage experiences without abstraction, and accomplishes without action. He accepts the ebb and flow of things, nurtures them, but does not own them, and lives, but does not dwell,” and “Water overcomes the stone; without substance it requires no opening; this is the benefit of taking no action.”

What Lao-Tzu is essentially saying is that when we perceive life correctly, without placing our story on it, our lives naturally flow like water which has no desire, no needs to fulfill, has its own course, cannot be controlled, and will overcome any difficulty presented to it.

Nature is our greatest teacher, in letting go, and allowing life to naturally unfold. When the winds blow like a tyrant from an unknown land, a supple tree will not break, but will bend and allow, while a tree that is brittle will resist the ‘isness’ of the wind and be uprooted and destroyed. When we relax, our lives become like supple trees, and no matter how hard the storms may come, we will flow with them, allowing them to take their course without breaking with brittleness and frigidity.

Watch a river. Throw a rock into it. The river accepts it then returns to its natural course. Throw a branch into it and it will carry its weight without complaint. Throw a boulder into it and it will naturally find a way around it, and over time will carve its way through it. This is the nature of our lives without abstraction – following life’s ebb and flow. No longer forcing, but always embracing and allowing our individual rivers to travel their own unique and beautiful coarse.

I don’t believe in New Year Resolutions…

by Ann
I just don’t! It’s probably due to the fact that I feel compelled to accomplish everything that I set in my mind. Over the years, I’ve learned the secret to achieving goalslower expectations and achieve more. Or really what I learned is to not set any… just live and set my goals everyday.. or almost everyday… One bite at a time is better, more manageable and it works!

BUT.. here are some ideas just in case that you do like to make resolutions… or want to make some definite changes in your life, or have some specific goals that you want to attain in the up and coming year.

Example, if you want to fit into your skinny jeans, you might come up with a new exercise and diet plan. Part of that plan might include a goal to exercise five times a week. But if you don’t achieve that ‘magic’ number, then you might feel that you have failed, regardless of how many times you did exercise. Instead, lower the goal from exercising five times a week to a more realistic goal, like say, twice a week. And expect to meet that simpler goal. Not only ‘expect’ to … DO IT! You’ll feel great when you do! If you exceed it, that’s great, too! If you don’t! So what! Try again the next day!

It feels wonderful to meet your goals, and that feeling of success will keep you motivated to continue to achieve your goals. So, set yourself up for success with some simple steps: Set a smaller goal. After you achieve that, set a more adventurous one.

What do you want?

Do you want to drop those pesky extra pounds? WHY? Is it to increase your self-confidence? Is it for health reasons? Identify the the positive gains of achieving your goal (i.e. increasing your chances of being noticed by some hot guy) Once that’s figured out, look at what you want  and need to do to achieve it. It might be a series of smaller goals to achieve the overarching goal. One bite at a time…

How will you achieve your goal?

Get specific, be realistic, and keep the plans simple.  Write the goals down and the steps to achieve them. This will help you to look at things logically. You can see where you’ve over-reached, or may be setting the bar too low.

Is your plan realistic?

Rome wasn’t built in a day, and you aren’t going to fit into those skinny jeans tomorrow, but then again you might. But, just in case you don’t, take some time, and look seriously at your plan. If it’s not realistic, adjust it. You have the right to be successful. So don’t create a goal where you’re setting yourself up to fail. Or just don’t write any resolutions and you won’t fail!

Define success

Many times we create a goal without defining what the outcome will look like. How will you know when you’ve achieved your goal? What will you look like? How will you feel? What will you be able to do? Write it down, and revisit it often. Overtime, your definition of success might change. That’s OK! Give yourself permission to do what you need to do.

Be flexible

You will face challenges that might hinder or distract you from your goals. That’s life! Plan on it happening on a regular basis. Have ideas and plans about what to do when you have setbacks or don’t…

Get Guidance

Talk to someone about your plans, friends, family, or ‘experts’ or how about me? Whatever goals you set, make sure you’ll enjoy the work involved to achieve them and always keep your end goal in mind. If you enjoy what you’re doing, chances are you’ll continue doing it. Or don’t do it at all!

We all know New Year’s resolutions are usually doomed. Holiday enthusiasm dissipates. Changing our behavior is a big mountain to climb. You’ll feel more harmony in your life if you show yourself some gentle love and acceptance. On New Year’s Eve, take an inventory of everything valuable about you. Enhance and treasure those fine qualities in the new year. You’re doing just fine!

Again I don’t believe in New Year resolutions. I live like I want to, in order, to achieve what I desire almost each and everyday. But if you do believe in them, and set some…how about refer to these guidelines.
This New Year’s Eve how about count your blessings and all the wonderful things about you and your life then create the future that you desire day by day in the new year.
Most of all HAVE FUN!!! And love yourself!

Actually! The only ‘really important resolution’ to make is to follow this blog and read it everyday and tell all your friends about it! Really! Truly! It is!!!

Drink champagne! Eat some good food! Have some chocolate!

And workout tomorrow!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Have a great 2011!!!!!!

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Many Christmases and New Year’s Eves…

by Ann
All are different…Some full of abundance others not so much. Some spent with friends or loved ones and others spent in solitude.

Some too busy, even hectic, and others quiet and peaceful. Some with too much to eat and others with little. 
Some full of happiness, joy and expectation. Some full of melancholia and sadness. Some spent helping others and some where I ‘could’ve’ used some help…
Some spent in love. Others spent in loss.
Christmas Eve of Irony after kicking my alcoholic husband, whom I loved dearly, out of the house months previously, to save myself, I spent Christmas Eve alone drinking almost a whole bottle of wine…when rarely I drank at all.
Christmases with a large tree that Santa surrounded with everything a little girl could ever want with family around and a large breakfast of sausage, bacon, eggs, biscuits and jam. Fireplace roars duplicating the soothing warmth in the home.
A huge tree filling the space where the Grande piano used to be… so glad ‘he’ was gone.. took two days to decorate it. Prettiest tree ever. It was my Christmas… no more yelling or sarcasm, it was gone with him. Peace was in my house. Lying under it looking up at the lights, I felt like a child full of joy and expectation again. 
Working out. A hot shower, my gift was washing everything on my bed to make it fresh for Christmas Eve. A small apartment, sliding into my clean sheets, warm and cozy, alone, but safe and warm, giving thanks to God for abundance and peace in my life.

Too much Christmas, his parents at noon, to eat and celebrate and mine that evening. Over stuffed, over everything. If only we could celebrate alone…

Many Christmases of beautiful church services…

The only celebration one year was a hot bath, some Christmas music and wine, munching cheese, crackers and fruit, watching Christmas movies on TV, ‘It’s a Wonderful Life’ and ‘Miracle on 34th Street.’

Playing Secret Santa with a group of friends. We had most everything, so were giving to others that had little to nothing.
A well-decorated tree, making Christmas cookies and playing Santa, Barbies, American Dolls, roller skates, bicycles, everything a little girl could want. Going to bed tired then getting up very early to the excitement of a child.

Serving meals to the homeless, while wondering could this happen to me?

Shaking a Christmas snow globe and winding it up repeatedly to play, ‘I wish you a Merry Christmas! I wish you a Merry Christmas’ as I sat in the dark crying.

New Year’s Eve wearing designer clothing at a Country Club, full of decorations,  an orchestra, champagne, friends and dancing.
Sitting on the sofa alone watching the ball drop in New York pondering my desire to cut some off…
In bed surrounded by candlelight, sipping champagne with my husband, New Year’s Eve shows on TV.
Sitting in bed alone, sipping champagne watching New Year’s Eve TV.
In front of a fireplace, eating a dinner prepared by him, so in love and so content. At mid-night, making love in front of the fireplace, who cares what time it is.

Black tie celebration, the best of everything tied up in love and romance.

Whooping it up, country and western, jeans, boots and a cowboy hat, line dancing, two stepping, swigging champagne right out of the bottle.

New Year’s Eve movie marathon
at a theatre with a neighbor and her young daughter. Eating popcorn, watching ‘The Chronicles of Narnia’, then ‘King Kong’ and laughing and laughing as the little girl jumped up and down the stairs like a monkey.

Dancing to music slow, dizzy with love and champagne, my head on his shoulder, feeling so loved, content and at peacekissing at midnight.

All different, but really all the same and, of course, there are many more, as they all swirl in my head in fond memory.. All ultimately good, even when seemingly bad and all make up the fabric of me and the experiences of my life.

Where ever you are in the timeframe of your life and most especially during the holidays when you most reflect and feel nostalgia, know that it’s only a reflection of a moment in your life. So be there fully in whatever the experience turns out to be. Enjoy and appreciate every ounce of it, no matter what it is, or seems to be.

Feel, experince it all, the happiness as well as the sadness, the love as well as the loss, the joy as well as the pain. Because what seems like the worst, might become the best and what seems like the best, may very well be the best of the best, or it may be topped by even better the very next year. Who knows!!?? 

In time, circumstances change, but is it all good because it’s all you… all that you are culminating in that moment in time. So, don’t wish it gone, or past, or wish it to be something else. Just feel it. Imprint it in your being…as it will too soon become a memory like all others…all woven together to become the wonder of your life. And if you are lucky and truly blessed, you will experience it all, the highs and the lows…the ups and the downs, the abundance and the loss…

Cheers to them all!
And God bless you. May your heart be filled with the joy of the real reason for the season and much peace and happiness in the New Year! 

Have you ever had someone try to…

by Ann
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put your light out? Or even try to diminish your spirit, your soul? Have you ever had someone see your divine light and being so attracted to it, they come after your glow to try and capture it for their own?

And by so doing, their actions and behaviors and harm begin to diminish and almost snuff the light right out of you…

They see your happiness, your light. They attract to it and they wonder where it comes from, or they are jealous, and, or envious so they try to figure out why you are so content, at peace in your spirit and why you glow. They try to claim it for their own.
Then when they realize that they can’t…they may ‘try’ to erradicate it in you.

But taking, diminishing and dimming another’s light, isn’t the way. Only the darkness can’t see this for they are in the dark.

But the dark can recognize the light…

Not realizing that the light comes from a connection deep within, pulled from the source above and that it is endless in its abundance and love and is theirs for the asking. Not to try and ‘take’ or diminish it from another, but to connect to it for themselves.

The dark doesn’t ‘get’ this. The dark tries to take, even steal, the light from others.

But in so doing, the dark actually defines the light and flames it to shine even brighter because the light always reveals the dark…

The dark doesn’t ‘get’ that the light is anchored within and may be temporarily  dimmed, or retreat for a moment, or awhile, but it always returns and sometimes to even shine brighter. And it’s in the giving, not the taking that it shines even brighter. The dark doesn’t ‘get’ this…The dark can’t see, or stand this…

So, the dark keeps ‘trying’ to diminish and take the light…and by so doing, loses its chance to experience the very thing that it wants and desires. The light.

“The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in you is darkness, how great is that darkness!” — Matthew –

In this season of love, forgiveness and giving shine your light brightly onto others. Glow your lightShine into the darkness. Reveal…the dark.