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I Am A Murderer! – excerpt from DADDY THROWS ME IN THE AIR

In my thirties…

When I was in high school, I didn’t know what an abortion was. Only the sleaziest of girls went ‘all the way’. I didn’t know of, or ever even heard of a girl getting pregnant. If one did, it was hidden and taken care of by her family to an outcome that they alone reached and it was done in private.

I didn’t have my first ‘French Kiss’ until the night of my high school prom. The first man that I ‘went all the way’ with, we were engaged and got married. As an adult, I can look back and know that I missed nothing by not having sex at a young age. In that area, I was able to be a child, instead of pretending or playing at being grown-up.

When I was in college, one of my best girlfriends from high school got pregnant by her longtime boyfriend and I was appalled to hear it. No one that I knew of got pregnant before they got married. This couple quickly married because to have a child out of wedlock just wasn’t done. It was shameful to everyone concerned.

I dealt with the issues of sexuality as an adult and even then they were at times very difficult. In my thirties, I got pregnant. The man and I were in love, but I wasn’t out of my first marriage even though we had been separated for years. My ex-husband dragged it out and forced it to court. My first marriage had ended in complete embarrassment and scandal and the whole town knew about it. It would have added more shame for my family and me if I was pregnant, not being completely divorced and not married. The man I loved and I, couldn’t get married, until three months after my divorce was final and it was not even as of yet final. So for the sake of image, we killed our baby.

The man I was dating told me that he would do whatever I wanted to do in this regard. We were planning on getting married anyway, but after much discussion, we opted for abortion.

It was the most difficult decision that I have ever made in my life. I changed my mind several times before actually having the abortion. Even as I was getting out of the car to enter the medical facility, he and I were still discussing it. One of my thought processes in deciding to have an abortion was that it must be okay because others were doing it. Then there was ‘Roe versus Wade’, a ruling that deemed it okay to abort a baby.  This created distorted thinking in me to think that if the government said it was okay then it must be okay. As if having an abortion and killing a child, had a government stamp of approval. Therefore even though in my heart and soul, I knew it was wrong. I made the difficult and horrendous decision to kill our baby. Even as they were putting me under anesthesia, I was protesting in my heart. The doctor feeling my angst said, “Relax, it will be over soon.”

I went to court to testify in my divorce on Monday of that week, which was eventually awarded to me on extreme mental cruelty in a no-fault divorce state. Then on Friday of that same week, I had an abortion.

That doctor performing the abortion was incorrect. It was never over. I suffered emotionally for years because of this decision. The man and I married the following year, but our having made the abortion decision, irreparably harmed our relationship. I couldn’t get past it and he wanted to forget it. He did suffer but he didn’t want to think, talk about it or to deal with his emotions. I needed to deal with mine. I would have intense crying spells concerning this decision. I felt tormented in my heart. I prayed and asked God repeatedly for forgiveness, until I was finally able to put it into some sort of perspective. But I will never get over it and when I think of it, still to this day, I feel like crying. Abortion is murder. On my death bed, I will still be asking for God’s forgiveness for this decision.

Many years later, I told my father about my having an abortion. I am not sure that he believed me or that it really sunk in. He just stared at me and said, “Of all my children, I wanted you to have grandchildren.” Hearing him say this, of course made me feel worse than I already did, in some regards, but not in others. In some ways, I was glad that I didn’t have children. I had such a horrible childhood in some ways that I didn’t want a child to be brought into this world to suffer as I had. I wanted a child to be born into a marriage with a loving couple. I never felt that I had that.

These were my beliefs based on the imprints that I took in from my family of origin.

Children are gifts from God no matter how or where they enter the world. I believe that whatever circumstances a child enters into is theirs to break against, to heal from and is their opportunity to become more of who they are meant to be.

I don’t want women that make the decision to have an abortion to have to sneak into some back alley and have it done by some hack or in less than sterile and safe circumstances. But at the same time, if having an abortion carried shame, it might curtail some from getting pregnant in the first place. That there is shame associated with getting pregnant out of wedlock.

Why is abortion a government issue? Shouldn’t this most serious decision be made between a woman, her doctor, her family, those in her life who understand her situation and her God?

I believe in a woman’s right to choose as there are circumstances in life and that of the unborn where an abortion might be the decision neede be made.  I am not stating that abortion is the right thing to do, as this is not my place, nor is it the place of the government. It is deeply personal and a decision of seriousness that matches few others, as is also the decision to bring a child into the world.

There is a right or better way to live, such as a couple of mature age,  fall in love, get engaged, marry, buy a house then when they are settled, financially responsible and secure in their relationship, have a child. This is actually the best/better/easier way.  Sure there are many other ways, but when you do things ‘right’ – they have a better chance to turn out positive for all concerned.

When and how did abortions become such an ordinary and easy decision to make? Was it ‘Roe versus Wade’ that did it? But the woman that forced the decision concerning this ruling being made into law, has since changed her mind.

How did we as a country become so lax and promiscuous? Was it when the government started paying for unwed mothers and their issue? Is this when many decided that having a ‘government baby’ was the thing to do or even a ‘lifestyle choice’ that was desirable – that the ‘government’ be a child’s father?

I was in my thirties when I had an abortion and even then I didn’t realize how deeply that I would be affected for the rest of my life by this decision. So how in the world can a young person in high school, or even younger understand or have any idea about the importance or how profoundly deep a decision it is to have sex, get pregnant, choose to have an abortion or to bring a life into this world? You need to be able to provide and care for yourself before you bring a life into the world to be under your care and supervision.

Sex creates life. Human life is the most valuable creation there is. Life is the most valuable, important, precious and profound thing on our planet. Abortion is killing a growing human being.  Abortion is killing a life.

My awareness is that I made the choices that I did, based on where I was at the time.  I made a choice guided by shame and image. I made a decision that instinctively I knew was wrong, but based on the fact that the government deemed it okay. I went with the government’s decision to kill an unborn child. Had I not had the government’s blessing, I may not have had the abortion.

I understand all sides, mine, the father of the baby’s, society and the governments. I accept the choice that I made and have lived with it ever since I made it. I forgive myself and all concerned and I turn it over to God.

A book for awareness and healing…

Hell on Earth…

 I met a Dr. who works for Planned Parenthood – I have never met or talked with anyone associated with this organization before. He is Ob-Gyn and cares for and delivers babies at a hospital and then also works for Planned Parenthood giving abortions. I talked to him without sharing my beliefs and opinion – at first. I asked him if he thought of an abortion as killing a child and he answered, “No, it’s just an operation. The women don’t want the child or they should not be having a baby in the first place.” He said that he performs abortions on girls as young as 15 and women who have many, many children and just don’t want another. He was matter of fact about it all with no care or emotion. Although he did state that in his opinion when the first two cells connect that there is life.  Then I commented that assisting to bring babies into the world must be joyful. His response, “No, it’s just a procedure. Many of these women should not be having kids. They can’t afford them. They can’t afford to care for themselves. They have no common sense. They just get pregnant, get an abortion or have the kid and can’t take care of it. If the woman tries to work child care is too costly. So they quit and stay home.”

So he assists with bringing life into the world on one hand and kills life with the other. And to him either way, it’s no big deal… just procedures.

I have worked as a volunteer in a charity capacity with young girls before. I know and understand how frustrating their ignorance, lack of common sense and no education or proper life guidance can be. One girl I worked with was 14 and all she wanted was to be like Angelina Jolie. This uneducated star-struck child wanted to have many children but did not want to be married. I asked her how she would support all of her children and she shrugged. She never thought about it. I told her that Jolie had a lot of money and was able to afford to give her children food, shelter and education even if she was not married. I asked this young girl if she could do that? And she shrugged. She had no concept of reality of what it took to care for children. She just wanted them. She was a child herself and no one had instructed her about life and reality. Her mother had been an unwed mother. She was carrying on the family legacy.

The ignorance, immorality, lack of common sense, lack of parenting, ‘hooking-up’, no real human interaction and connection, technology world we are living in is fast become Hell on earth. With sex as sport and no commitment, abortion with no concern, lack of responsibility, corrupted government. media propaganda and brainwashing. We are doomed.

I am disgusted with it all. I was reared so differently – to treasure life – that you get married, buy a house and then have a child – I was reared with God in my life. I went to Sunday school, church… I never thought about having children before I would be married. To do this would be shameful… What in the world is happening today?! Human life has no value. Morality has no value. Commitment has no value. Evil is taking over our world at rapid pace and at its basis is complete ignorance and irresponsibility – no respect or value for, or to human beings.. some people place more value on their pets than human beings, but dare you mention how many fat people there are now and ‘Oh my gosh!’ you hurt their poor ignorant, self -indulgent feelings’ – This is the world of ‘hook ups’ where sex means little to nothing. There is no commitment with sex and relationships – no commitment to one another –  so no commitment to the children they bring into this world. It’s the don’t judge me lifestyle of the young  and Godless.  Yep… HELL ON EARTH.

Butcher of Benghazi…

Hillary lies 2Hillary Clinton has made clear she intends to dramatically raise taxes on the American people if elected. She has proposed an income tax increase, a business tax increase, a death tax increase, a capital gains tax increase, a tax on stock trading, an “Exit Tax” and more (see below). Her planned net tax increase on the American people is at least $1 trillion over ten years, based on her campaign’s own figures.

Hillary has endorsed several tax increases on middle income Americans, despite her pledge not to raise taxes on any American making less than $250,000. She has said she would be fine with a payroll tax hike on all Americans, she has endorsed a steep soda tax, endorsed a 25% national gun tax, and most recently, her campaign manager John Podesta said she would be open to a carbon tax. It’s no wonder that when asked by ABC’s George Stephanopoulos if her pledge was a “rock-solid” promise, she slipped and said the pledge was merely a “goal.” In other words, she’s going to raise taxes on middle income Americans.

Hillary+Clinton+caricature+webHillary’s formally proposed $1 trillion net tax increase consists of the following:

Income Tax Increase – $350 Billion: Clinton has proposed a $350 billion income tax hike in the form of a 28 percent cap on itemized deductions.

Business Tax Increase — $275 Billion: Clinton has called for a tax hike of at least $275 billion through undefined business tax reform, as described in a Clinton campaign document.

“Fairness” Tax Increase — $400 Billion: According to her published plan, Clinton has called for a tax increase of “between $400 and $500 billion” by “restoring basic fairness to our tax code.” These proposals include a “fair share surcharge,” the taxing of carried interest capital gains as ordinary income, and a hike in the Death Tax.

But there are even more Clinton tax hike proposals not included in the tally above. Her campaign has failed to release specific details for many of her proposals. The true Clinton net tax hike figure is likely much higher than $1 trillion.

For instance:

Capital Gains Tax Increase — Clinton has proposed an increase in the capital gains tax to counter the “tyranny of today’s earnings report.” Her plan calls for a byzantine capital gains tax regime with six rates. Her campaign has not put a dollar amount on this tax increase.

Tax on Stock Trading — Clinton has proposed a new tax on stock trading. Costs associated with this new tax will be borne by millions of American families that hold 401(k)s, IRAs and other savings accounts. The tax increase would only further burden markets by discouraging trading and investment. Again, no dollar figure for this tax hike has been released by the Clinton campaign.

“Exit Tax” – Rather than reduce the extremely high, uncompetitive corporate tax rate, Clinton has proposed a series of measures aimed at inversions including an “exit tax” on income earned overseas. The term “exit tax” is used by the campaign itself. Her campaign document describing this proposal says it will raise $80 billion in tax revenue, but claims some of the $80 billion will be plowed into tax relief. How much? The campaign doesn’t say.

This proposal completely fails to address the underlying causes behind inversions: The U.S. 39% corporate tax rate (35% federal rate plus an average state rate of 4%) and our “worldwide” system of taxation, which imposes tax on all American earnings worldwide. The average corporate rate in the developed world is 25%. Thirty-one of thirty-four developed countries have cut their corporate tax rate since 2000. The U.S. has not. Hillary’s plan moves in the wrong direction.

ATR is tracking Clinton’s full tax record at its dedicated website, HighTaxHillary.com

See also: “Everyman” Tim Kaine Tried to Raise Taxes on Adult Beverages

Hillary Opens the Door to a Carbon Tax

Hillary’s Soda Tax Endorsement Violates Middle Class Tax Pledge

Video Shows Hillary’s 25% Gun Tax Endorsement

Democrat Platform Calls for Carbon Tax

Tim Kaine Pushed Income Tax Hikes on Working Families Making As Little as $17,000

 Anyone who votes Democratic/progressive/communist is voting against self, their quality of life, their family, the future of their children and freedom. They are voting for their demise and that of America.

Islam is not a religion of peace…

???????????????????????????????It’s basis is Sharia Law…Dorrie O’Brien spoke recently at the Frisco Tea Party on Islam and Sharia Law (pictured between myself and Al Lee, candidate for Congress)

She became suspicious of people telling her that Islam was a religion of peace. So, she investigated and discovered…

Sharia Law is a political ideology disguised as a religion with goals to take over America and the world. They sanction lying, taqiyya, to achieve their goals. They use stealth jihad tactics (everything short of physically going to war) to infilitrate, propagandize, elect Muslims to office, and convert Americans to Islam, in order to establish Sharia law as the law of the land, and make the country an Islamic nation, ruled by a Sharia-compliant caliph.

Muslims think that they are superior to all others

Sharia means the way to the water well… the way of life… the way to live…(this is the way all Muslims must live)

Islamic Scholars Claim: Islamic law is perfect, universal and eternal. The laws of the United States are temporary, limited and will pass away. It is the duty of every Muslim to obey the laws  of Allah, the Sharia. US laws are man-made; while Sharia law is sacred and comes from the only legitimate god, Allah.

Islam is the grandfather of Marxism, Communism, Socialism, Progressivism and Liberalism… the ‘ism’s’ that want total control over all aspects of people’s lives.

Sharia is based on the principles found in the Koran and other Islamic religious/political texts. There are no common principles between American law and Sharia.
Under Sharia law:
– There is no freedom of religion.
– There is no freedom of speech.
– There is no freedom of thought.
– There is no freedom of artistic expression.
– There is no freedom of press.
– There is no equality of peoples —  a non-Muslim, a Kafir, is never equal to a Muslim.
– There is no equal protection under Sharia for different classes of people.
Justice is dualistic, with one set of laws for Muslims males and different laws for women and non-Muslims.
– There are no equal rights for women.
– Women can be beaten.
– A non-Muslim cannot bear arms.
– There is no democracy. since democracy means that a non-Muslim is equal to a Muslim.
– Our Constitution is a man-made document of ignorance, jahiliyah, that must submit to Sharia.
– Non-Muslims are dhimmis, third-class citizens.
–  All governments must be ruled by Sharia law.
– Unlike common law, Sharia is not interpretive, nor can it be changed.
– There is no ‘Golden Rule’. (do unto others as you would have them do unto you.)

Sharia is the basis for every demand that Muslims make on our society.
– When schools are asked to give up a room for Islamic prayer, that is asking us to implement Sharia law.
– When a Muslim wears a head scarf, that is in obedience to Sharia law.
– When our newspapers would not publish the Danish Mohammed cartoons, our newspapers were submitting to the demands of Sharia law.
– When demands are made for our hospitals to treat Muslim women in special ways, that is Sharia.
– When our textbooks have to be vetted by Muslims organizations before they are used in our schools, that is in accordance with Sharia law.

The attack on the World Trade Center was perpetrated in adherence to the rules of war, ‘jihad’, found in Sharia law. Sharia law is the basis for everything in the lives of all Muslims. Sharia law is being implemented more and more in America and yet there is no knowledge about what Sharia actually is, since public, private, or religious schools do not teach it.

Most mosques in America are built by Saudi Bankers. Muslims are instructed to build mosques where ever they go. Their mosques are their fortresses and their center of war. They infiltrate communities by getting seats on City Councils – Zoning – Planning – Police… American cities are being taken over by Muslims… as in Dearborn, Michigan. Muslims are moving forward in their agenda of Sharia law while denying what they are doing… remember taqiyya‘sanctioned lying’ to achieve their agenda.

Sharia law denies freedom and American rights. A Muslim thinks it’s their duty to kill non-Muslims.

The Islam happening in Europe is what we will see in America in 20 years…the actions in Europe are based on Sharia law and are being implemented in America.Moozies1

-There are times that traffic cannot move in London streets as Muslims command the streets to pray.
– Entire areas of Europe are no-go zones for non-Muslims, this includes the police. These are Islamic enclaves where only Muslims live. The ‘Muslim-only policy’ is based on Sharia.
– In England an Anglican bishop calls for the rule of Islamic law for Muslims. The bishop is obeying Sharia Law.
– In the schools only Islamic approved texts can be used: this is based on Sharia law.
– Christians may not speak to Muslims about Christianity nor may Christians hand out literature. This is a political result based on Sharia law enforced by British courts.
– Rape by Muslims is so prevalent in parts of Sweden that Sweden has forbidden the police from collecting any data in the rape investigation that would point to Islam. Rape is apart of the Islamic doctrine as applied to non-Muslim women.
– In London, mass demonstrations by Muslims call for the end of British law and Sharia law to rule all people, regardless of religion. This political action is based on Sharia.
– In some English hospitals, during Ramadan fast, non-Muslims cannot eat where a Muslim can see them. The submission of non-Muslims to Islamic preferences is based on Sharia law.
– At British hospitals, Muslim women are treated only as Sharia law demands.

Sharia law is creeping into America on every level. And it may take over if something isn’t done to stop it.

Wall of Shame – Americans working for the Muslim Brotherhood and aiding the spread of Sharia: BHO. At his “feet” is NJ Gov. Chris Christie: Nominated Sohail Mohammed for seat on NJ Superior Ct. SM is a member of the American Muslim Jurists Assembly, a MusBrotherhood ???????????????????????????????Christie knew it.
Top line: Denis McDonough: Dept Nat’l Security Advisor to BHO. Said to the Muslims in a mosque in DC that the leaders needn’t worry about the Peter King hearings, “we” weren’t going to take it seriously. #2. Hillary Rodham Clinton. She made the list for working with the OIC and the MusBro in Egypt, legitimizing both for the US. #3 Lee Baca. LA Cty Sheriff. Works with and helps CAIR achieve their goals. #4 Mike Downing. La Dep Police chief in charge of counterterrorism. Works with CAIR, MPAC, and Lee Baca.

2nd line: John Morton, Director, ICE. “Accidentally” put Israel on the list of terrorist countries. Below him is Eric Holder, USDOJAG. Complete fool.

The Box of 4: James Clapper, Dr. Nat’l Intel. Said MB is a loose conglomerate of largely secular, non-violent orgs, not a real threat to anybody, no connection to Al-Qaeda or any other nation. #2, Janet Napolitano, Director, DHS. Inept, to be kind. #3 Diane Sawyer. Media collaborator. #4. John Brennan DHS Chief of Counterterrorism, largely responsible for appointing 3 known MusBro anti-American Muslims to the DHS counterterrorism Advisory Board.

World and American Heroes – Those fighting the Muslim Brotherhood and creeping Sharia: Geert Wilders, member of Dutch Parliament. Freedom fighter extraordinaire. Brigitte??????????????????????????????? Gabriel, founder, ACT! For America. Pam Geller and Robert Spencer. Bob’s one of the world’s finest minds vis a vis the Islamic mind; writes jihadwatch for FrontPageMag.com. Pam Geller is a fearless defender against all Islamic incursions in the country; writes atlasshrugs.com.

2nd line: Paul Fields. Captain in Tulsa police dept. removed from his job when he refused to order his men to “voluntarily” attend Open Mosque Day for Sensitivity Training. Eric Stakelbeck, author of books on terrorist activity in the US and reporter for Christian Action Network with his show Stakelbeck on Terror. Steve Coughlin, considered the #1 expert on Islamic jihad; fired from his advisory position to the Joint Chiefs on the word of Hesham Islam, a Muslim close to Gordon England, the Dep Sec of Defense. US Rep Sue Myrick, R-NC, Chair of the House Anti-Terrorism Caucus.  US Rep Louie Gohmert, (R) from the 1st District in TX (Tyler).

Bottom line: Tommy Robinson, founder, English Defense League. Melanie Phillips, author Londonistan; fierce fighter against the Islamic takeover of Britain. Bill Warner, PoliticalIslam.com. Author 5 books on Sharia Law and the Koran. John Guandolo, former FBI agent. Quit the FBI to work with Steve Coughlin and formed the Strategic Engagement Group. The two of them spend their lives briefing members of Congress, police depts personnel, and other gov’t officials in all states about the MusBro. Frank Gaffney, president of ‘The Center for Security Policy’; heavily involved with making sure American Law for American Courts is made into law in all 50 states, among other things. US Rep Allen West, R-FL. Former military; straight-talker against Islam; I expect he’ll be VP, at least, one day. US Rep Peter King, R-LI. Holding hearings on the Islamization of America.

www.actforamerica.org – the only NGO national security organization in the world that specifically fights Islam.

www.politicalislam.com  – books by Bill Warner…

If you aren’t educated on this issue… read up and become aware.

Peace – means peace between the brothers in Islam, which is a lie.  It’s deception at its most evil.